Today I woke up a Penn State student and tonight I'll go to bed as a Penn State Alumnus. This is really weird considering I'm thousands of miles away in England.
I've been getting a bit bummed while looking at graduation pictures and just emotional all over about graduating and not being there. I just feel like I'm missing out on everything and it doesn't even feel like I'm graduating at all. But it's okay: I'm having the time of my life in England
and I still get to walk at a graduation in August. It doesn't really feel like I'm graduating since I won't be there and walking, but it is real and my diploma will be arriving to my house before I home from Europe solidifying its realness. I also started to make a list of reasons why it's actually better that I'm walking in August.
- Less people in State College! 1 graduation compared to like 459 or 10 or something. Also, no spring move-out.
- Photo-op lines will probs be much shorter. See first bullet.
- I still get to graduate with 2 of my best friends.
- I'll be tan come August!
- That's a joke. I'll still be completely pale.
- Hopefully by my second graduation I'll know what I will be doing with my life.
- Everyone can come back to watch us graduate in August.
- And therefore have one last weekend in State College!
As I write this, I am currently "graduating." My fellow College of Education peers are in the Bryce Jordan Center as graduation has started just minutes ago. Since we can't be at graduation, my friend and I celebrated by going to see a movie and going to get dessert and ordered a bottle of wine for ourselves. And since I can't take any graduation photos at school at the moment with the lion shrine or anything, I found a lion last week in London that will have to be a stand-in until August.

Sometimes I wonder how I wound up where I am now. In the beginning of high school I had wanted to go to a small school. I went from wanting a small school to graduating from one of the largest universities. I'm not sure when my mind changed or what made it change, but I think I was slightly influenced from the years of attending games with my dad. And once Ryan started at University Park, I just fell in love with it and I think that's what did it. I don't want to admit that part of the reason why I picked Penn State was because of the comfort of having Ryan there, but let's be real; I'm not a leader, I'm a follower. I knew he would be there and my family would be there every so often. Also, I've always looked up to Ryan and did as he did. I used to dress up in his clothes, I played the sports he did (and was better haha), and I even broke my collarbone because I tried to jump out of the van at the young age of 2 after him. I'm so glad to have "followed" Ryan and though I depended on him a lot my first year of college, I eventually was able to stop walking in his footsteps and start a path of my own. I can't wait to complete our graduation photos in August! (Ummm, where's your CC one!?)


It's crazy to think about how much I have done and accomplished in just 4 years. It seems like such a long time ago I was finishing my senior year of high school and making the transition to college student, but 4 years isn't that long at all. I started college as this shy girl that had some trouble finding her way, and now I am a lot less shy, much more confident in myself, a world traveler, and a teacher. I have been through ups and downs, highs and lows, I've been many new places, met tons of people, I've made friends, I've lost friends, found myself, laughed, cried, became a family, became a Penn Stater. There is so much I've learned about the world and myself in just these 4 short years. 4 years ago I never would've guessed I would be in England right now. It it wasn't for Penn State, I wouldn't have the amazing friends I have, the experiences I've had, and I most definitely wouldn't be in England right now. Despite all that happened within the past few months, I cannot be more proud to be Penn Stater. Being a Penn Stater is something special that I am going to carry with me the rest of my life. I am never going to forget my time here, the good, the bad, and I am so happy that I made the best decision in my life to attend Penn State.
I remember when I left high school everyone said that the friends made in high school probably wouldn't be around when you graduate college. I am so glad that those I called my "best friends" in high school can still be called that. No matter how far away we've been from each other (thousands of miles at times), and how little we've seen each other, we've still been close and I expect that they will still be important parts of my life for years to come.

I've met some amazing people. People that went from strangers to friends to confidants, to roommates to family. They've been with me every step of the way and I can't imagine going through college without them. Some weren't around as long as others, but I'm so happy to have had them all as roommates that I consider family.

I always wanted a sister, and through no fault of my own, I feel like I finally have one and hopefully soon I can truly call her a sister. I'm so glad that Ryan met Lindsay and that she has been there for me all this time. We started in the awkward "I'm dating your brother" stage to being friends that share clothing to comforting each other as the other cried. I know it's a cliche thing to say, but I honestly feel that college wouldn't have been the same without her.
I've met new friends from an old friend at PSU Altoona and did crazy things with them right from the get-go. I got to see them more throughout the years, go to football games together, celebrate birthdays and go to concerts with these girls I've been friends with almost my entire college career. They went from people that I heard a friend talk about to people I am so glad entered my life and hope are still there in years to come. (Apparently I really like that pinkish top!)
I've met some people that are going to be amazing teachers in the next few months.
I also made a friend that came all the way from Australia. One time we had a conversation about accents and how I didn't think I had one, but everyone does, we all just sound similar in America. When I met her, she was the one with an accent; now I'm the one that has a different accent from everyone else!
I've been to a ton of football games...
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In the front row for my very first game in the student section. |
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At Pitt. |
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Front row and half naked! |
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After camping out for a week |
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At Duquesne. |
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At Northwestern. |
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At Ohio State. |
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In the rain. |
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For win #409 and the end of an era. |
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For the last time in the student section
and at the end of a long and tiring week. |
I started school at 18, just a month after I graduated. After 4 birthdays, I am leaving college as an adult.
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19th |
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20th |
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21st |
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22nd |
As I finish writing this, the College of Education graduation is over and I can now officially say that I am an alum of The Pennsylvania State University. I think a verse from the Alma Mater sums up my time at Penn State perfectly.
"When we stood at childhood's gates,
Shapeless in the hand of fate,
Though didst mold us, dear old state
Dear old state, dear old state."